Healing and Obedience to God: My Journey

The Call to Obedience

When I started my healing journey, I also wanted to grow my relationship with God. The goal was obedience and faith. I knew it would be difficult, but I was ready for the challenge, or so I thought. For a while, I had been having issues, mentally, physically and emotionally. I was exhausted and just tired of trying. For the past few years, I had floated the idea of selling my place. I was tired of owning, well I was tired of the responsibilities of owning. I figured that I must be doing something wrong. It felt as if I kept repeating the same issues over and over again and it didn’t matter what I did the outcome was the same which wasn’t positive. After this last go around I decided to stop trying to do it my way and do it God’s way, which led me to try and completely trust God.

The Truth About Obedience No One Talks About

Obedience sounds easy until God asks for something that disrupts your comfort. Have you ever felt that? We often get so caught up on what we want, pray for it and think that if I’m obedient then I’ll get what I want and that’s the furthest thing from the truth. Obedience comes at a price. That price can be your comfort. We often ask for things that we really aren’t ready for and in order for God to give it to you, He has to prepare you and preparation is hardly ever easy. Have you ever trained for a marathon? Even seasoned runners will tell you it takes a toll on you. You will question your decision to do this and to be obedient to God is the same. You’ll question it, try to make sense of it but sometimes the logic isn’t there and you have to replace it with faith.

Let’s start with Noah and the Ark:

The story of Noah begins in Genesis 6:9. God was not happy with what was going on Earth. He decided he would flood the earth but spare Noah, his wife, his sons and their wives. Noah was obedient and constructed this large vessel for a flood that was unprecedented for the time. Here logic would say, it never rains like this,why would I waste my time for something that has never happened and odds say it won’t. Similar to my life, why give up a home you’ve had for over a decade for the unknown and an uncertain time. Like Noah, the task wasn’t easy but similar to him I decided to be obedient. In the end, Noah’s family was spared but the jury is still out for me.

Could you imagine if Noah disobeyed God? We probably wouldn’t be here. Sometimes, God calls us to do something that won’t make sense and we’re going to struggle. We’ll be upset at times because it’s not what I wanted. But in the end, we always have to obey.

My Leap of Faith

So, I took my big leap of faith and decided to be obedient to God. This wasn’t a run of the mill decision, it was one I had been praying on and going back and forth for awhile and ultimately I decided to do it. I decided to sell my home. Which sounds crazy, the American dream is home ownership and here I am giving it away. When it sold, I was nervous. So many times I wanted to go back and change my mind but I stayed the course. I thought me and God had an understanding of how the next steps would happen but it did not go as planned (there goes that comfort) and here I am now, wondering if I misunderstood God while simultaneously trusting Him.

Obedience isn’t easy, it isn’t pretty and we won’t always be comfortable but as I tell my kids, get comfortable being uncomfortable. That’s the only way we’ll grow.

Is God telling you to take a leap of faith right now? Share in the comments, we can all benefit from sharing our stories